Just a quick "check in"

Well, week 3 of the quarter went pretty well. I picked up two new massage clients, both seemed to really enjoy the service I provide :-) It makes me feel good to know that, even when I feel like I am off of my game, the clients still enjoy it.

My opinion of the massage given to new client #2:
"Well that sucked! She's probably not going to come back."

Her opinion, unsolicited:
"That was amazing!"

Okie Dokie! Well, bless the LORD! I'm glad she enjoyed it :-)

Detox:
Oh, MAN it was nice to be in an "off" cycle! Not having to get up every 4 hours to take DMSA is SOOOOO nice! I slept through the night! Hooray!!! However, being in an off cycle doesn't mean that I didn't have the good days and bad days that are associated with neurotoxicity. WOW, sometimes I just FELT the lead symptoms and I thought I was going to NEVER wake up fully and I was so tired and sleepy that I felt like a zombie. It's crazy!

Well, Sunday, I started my 2nd "on" cycle and though I still have the good & bad days, I can already tell that I am starting to feel better. It is my hope that my body will let the lead go quickly (and the nickel, tungsten and barium, but lead is the big one).

Working Out:
There has been the opportunity for 4 workouts on our M, W, F schedule and I have made all 4. My workout partner made the 1st 3, but missed today because he has a test for which he wanted to study. It's okay, he will make Friday morning! I am speaking in faith. I know that he WANTS to workout, I am just praying that he is able to continue faithfulness to our workouts during midterms, lab finals and finals. It is sooooo much easier for me to workout when I have a partner!

I have been trying to decide if I should type out what I am doing for each of my workouts, but I am not sure. I have been keeping a log, so I DO know what I have done for each workout, I just haven't posted it here. The science behind the workout is solid, and it IS the BEST way to workout for fat loss. What I am missing is the testimony because the toxins in my body have burnt out my leptin receptors in my hypothalamus and I am what we call "weight loss resistant."

Eating Plan, AKA: the Cellular Healing Diet:
Again, the GOAL of this diet is NOT "losing weight." The goal of this diet is to encourage and facilitate healing of the cell membranes of all of my cells. Instead of trying to manipulate my body into doing what I want it to do (which, to a certain extent is witchcraft), I am giving my body what it needs to return to the state at which God designed us to live. Health is the natural state of the body, and the stuff that WE do to our food, our environment and ourselves in an effort to create comfort and convenience is KILLING US and knocking us out of that natural state. When my cell membranes are healed, meaning that they are not inflamed and the good stuff can get in and the bad stuff can get out, and the hormone receptors on the cell membranes heal, then the fat will begin to pour off of me. From what I have been told by those with much more clinical experience than I, I should expect to start losing fat during the 2nd-3rd month. I look forward to being able to report that.

Progress:
My last Tanita (body composition) scan said that I was 295 lbs and 39.8% fat. 39.8% of 295 lbs is 117.41 lbs. This means that my Fat Free Mass is (was) 177.59 lbs. Now, if my goal is to get to 14% fat, which is my tentative goal... I'm not sure at what percentage I will feel comfortable. (I'm sure I will eventually want to get down to 8-10%), that would put me at 206.5 lbs. WOW!!! We are talking 88.5 lbs of fat that I am trying to lose! The crazy thing is that I started my doctorate program at 365 lbs. I have lost 70 lbs and I am not even halfway to my goal!!! That's amazing... dumbfounding... and the temptation is to FEEL like I am staring at a mountain of fat that I cannot cross. That is NOT TRUE!!! I am on the right path, now I just need to stay the course!

STAY THE COURSE!!!!

My hope is that there will be a Tanita scanner at the Pompa Seminar, in Orlando, at the end of Week 7 (2/25-2/26. 2011). We will hopefully be seeing the beginnings of some serious fat loss. Pray for a brother!

I finish again with my main goals for this quarter:
1) Focus on God's love for me!!!
2) Receive that love to another level.
I tend to be able to love others a lot more easily than I can receive love. Both of those start with receiving God's love, because love comes from God.
3) Surrender to Him, to another level
...and then another and another, etc. and allow Him to build faithfulness in me that results in consistent action.
4) Continually tell myself the Truth
...and not "agree" with the lies that the devil and my emotions and my past try to tell me.