I of course say that as much like the Old Spice guy as possible, but I mean that I have gotten back on "the horse" of detox and working out.
Detox:
Well, it's not fun to detox. If you are detoxing at a cellular level (which is the ONLY true detox), you tend to get pretty tired. There are supplements to boost cellular energy; there are supplements to pull toxins from the brain; there are supplements to pull toxins from your fat tissue, organs and bone marrow; there are supplements to "catch" those toxins and help your body get rid of them so that they don't just circulate in your blood and deposit somewhere else. There is an eating plan that supports your hormones and is aimed at repairing your cells' membranes.
It's a lot, especially when it is also your first week of classes for the quarter and you are making up for a week of snow days in class, work and in the clinic. Add to this that one of the aforementioned supplements is to be taken every 4 hours: 1AM, 5AM, 9AM, 1PM, 5PM & 9PM. So, I didn't sleep very well this past week.
Sunday (yesterday) ended my first 7 days on, and now I have 7 days "off." Hopefully, I can get some sleep, as I made the command decision that I am not teaching any CPR courses during the week this week. I have 4 classes planned this weekend and two during the OSCE times next week on Tuesday and Wednesday morning. I am only 25% to my quarterly goal. Y'all please pray for me to hit my goals!
Working out:
It is SO nice to have a workout partner again! Our schedule is Monday, Wednesday and Friday. We did all three days last week and this morning... 4 for 4!!! Let's keep that faithfulness up! Woohoo!!!
Eating Plan:
One minor hiccup on Friday in the form of some potato chips, is all that stood between me and being completely faithful in that. Oh well... hopefully, it was small enough to not start me over with the symptoms of sugar withdrawal. That headache is NO FUN. Either way, I have been faithful again since, and I desire to be faithful for the remainder of the quarter. Fat loss is NOT THE GOAL, detoxification and cell membrane repair are. That said, it is normally the 2nd, and possibly the 3rd month, when the fat begins to pour off. This is according to doctors who have clinical experience with true cellular detox and have watched people heal and watched their bodies respond over and over again. The science is sound, and I know it works. What I do not have is a testimony. This has been because of me.
MY main goals for this quarter, again, are to:
1) Focus on God's love for me!!!
2) Receive that love to another level. I tend to be able to love others a lot more easily than I can receive love. Both of those start with receiving God's love, because love comes from God.
3) Surrender to Him, to another level and then another and another, etc. and allow Him to build faithfulness in me that results in consistent action.
4) Continually tell myself the Truth and not "agree" with the lies that the devil and my emotions and my past try to tell me.
It's 2AM and I have a class at 7AM... Good night!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
A return to the plank of illustration...
... or should I say "the drawing board?"
What happened the last 6 months or so of 2011? Well, there's a lot that I could say to try to excuse myself for the choices I made, but I won't. What I will do is try to sum up what happened as succinctly as I can:
* From July 2007 - June 2008, I lost 75 lbs. I went from 365 lbs to 290 lbs.
* From June 16th, 2008 - September 3rd, 2008 - I was having relationship problems with a woman that I had been dating, off and on, since February 9th, 2006 and had been discussing engagement rings with (I had BEEN ready, but in May SHE had brought it up).
* In September of 2008, we had what was, for me, a bad breakup. That is, actually, a huge understatement. I don't know if I have a full grasp of how hurt I was, even now. Physically, this emotional trauma was the catalyst to my toxic bucket overflowing.
* I have spent the last two years (September, 2008 - October 2010) in what my mom calls "survival mode." I was diving into God's presence and listening to Him and crying out, but I was emotionally unable to receive a lot of healing, because God was taking things from the root of my heart and healing those things. Mistakes I made, lies I believed and issues uncovered during my relationship were all "fruits" of deeper issues that I had previously dealt with in my own strength, but now God was taking me deeper than I could have gone on my own. Dealing with those took a lot of emotional energy. Couple that with the physical issues that my toxicity caused (and is causing) and you have an exhausted Joe Capri. I wish I could double bold that!
About the time of my last post, that woman called me and we had a talk for about an hour, and some textual activity a little while later. We had made plans to see each other when I went to Virginia on break (3 weeks after my last post). She stood me up. I mean, didn't show, didn't return texts or phone calls... she flat disappeared! Though it probably shouldn't have, it messed me up.
I returned to school in July and I took the Urine Heavy Metals test, and that's about it. I was so discouraged and hurt and exhausted that I gave up. I didn't eat right consistently. I didn't work out. I didn't care. My soul felt crushed. I was seeking God, and I had joy, but my emotions had kinda checked out. I'm not sure how to describe that, because it sounds a bit crazy. I could be joyous when I was walking in the Spirit, but when I was not focused on God or the things that I believed God was telling me to do, I fulfilled the lust of my flesh. And my flesh wanted to lay on the couch, eat ice cream, watch "chick flicks" and cry. And I did a lot of that. To try to keep myself from ONLY doing that and to not be alone, I ate out A LOT. The cry of my heart was: "How does any of this mean anything without her?"
Then in late September/early October (2010), I got closure with my ex (I found out that she'd gotten engaged to the guy after me... side note: she is the 5th ex-girlfriend who married the guy after me.), and with both of the women that I had really tried to move on with after I believe God told me to move on, in December 2009. After receiving closure, God started telling me some things that were uncomfortable, but that I was ready to hear. Over the last 2.5 months of 2010, I feel like God has been restoring my heart and calling me to not only get out of survival mode, but to be myself again.
School will start on Tuesday, after a week of snow/ice induced break extension and Martin Luther King, Jr. Day. When school starts, my detox will start as well. The main culprit in me was Lead, along with Barium, Nickel and Tungsten.
This is something you will hear from me a lot: being overweight, or in my case, obese, is a SYMPTOM. It is not the problem itself. Similarly, fixing the problem is more important than trying to lose the fat.
In my detox protocol:
1) There is chelation therapy (pronounced Key-lay-shun) which is composed of supplements that pull toxins out of your cells and others that grab the toxins and bind to them so that you can eliminate them when you go to the bathroom.
2)There is a specific eating plan (I call it that since the word "diet" has a connotation of being focused on weight loss) that is focused upon healing the individual cells of your body. Since fat loss is a "side effect" of my cells healing, there's a very real possibility that I may not lose ANY fat the first month. It is in fact possible that I may GAIN fat the first month. However, based upon the clinical experience of friends of mine who have implemented this protocol with patients, the fat should begin to pour off (typically) in the 2nd or 3rd month.
3) There is a specific form of exercise aimed at encouraging the proper hormone response in my body.
So, I would appreciate your prayers. I have to keep reminding myself that the GOAL is to repair my cells and remove toxins from my body at the cellular level, which is the ONLY true detox. The last time I tried the eating plan, I quit after a month because I had seen no response... I was never told that it takes more than a month. However, it should have been apparent to me. Faithfulness is a fruit of the God's presence in our lives, and God is calling me to faithfulness that results in consistent action.
Pray for a brother!!! My GOAL, just to spell it all out, for the Winter Quarter, 2011 is a three parter:
1) FOCUS on receiving God's love to another level
2) Allow God to cultivate a level of faithfulness that results in consistent action
3) Let that consistent action include all three parts of my detox protocol.
What happened the last 6 months or so of 2011? Well, there's a lot that I could say to try to excuse myself for the choices I made, but I won't. What I will do is try to sum up what happened as succinctly as I can:
* From July 2007 - June 2008, I lost 75 lbs. I went from 365 lbs to 290 lbs.
* From June 16th, 2008 - September 3rd, 2008 - I was having relationship problems with a woman that I had been dating, off and on, since February 9th, 2006 and had been discussing engagement rings with (I had BEEN ready, but in May SHE had brought it up).
* In September of 2008, we had what was, for me, a bad breakup. That is, actually, a huge understatement. I don't know if I have a full grasp of how hurt I was, even now. Physically, this emotional trauma was the catalyst to my toxic bucket overflowing.
* I have spent the last two years (September, 2008 - October 2010) in what my mom calls "survival mode." I was diving into God's presence and listening to Him and crying out, but I was emotionally unable to receive a lot of healing, because God was taking things from the root of my heart and healing those things. Mistakes I made, lies I believed and issues uncovered during my relationship were all "fruits" of deeper issues that I had previously dealt with in my own strength, but now God was taking me deeper than I could have gone on my own. Dealing with those took a lot of emotional energy. Couple that with the physical issues that my toxicity caused (and is causing) and you have an exhausted Joe Capri. I wish I could double bold that!
About the time of my last post, that woman called me and we had a talk for about an hour, and some textual activity a little while later. We had made plans to see each other when I went to Virginia on break (3 weeks after my last post). She stood me up. I mean, didn't show, didn't return texts or phone calls... she flat disappeared! Though it probably shouldn't have, it messed me up.
I returned to school in July and I took the Urine Heavy Metals test, and that's about it. I was so discouraged and hurt and exhausted that I gave up. I didn't eat right consistently. I didn't work out. I didn't care. My soul felt crushed. I was seeking God, and I had joy, but my emotions had kinda checked out. I'm not sure how to describe that, because it sounds a bit crazy. I could be joyous when I was walking in the Spirit, but when I was not focused on God or the things that I believed God was telling me to do, I fulfilled the lust of my flesh. And my flesh wanted to lay on the couch, eat ice cream, watch "chick flicks" and cry. And I did a lot of that. To try to keep myself from ONLY doing that and to not be alone, I ate out A LOT. The cry of my heart was: "How does any of this mean anything without her?"
Then in late September/early October (2010), I got closure with my ex (I found out that she'd gotten engaged to the guy after me... side note: she is the 5th ex-girlfriend who married the guy after me.), and with both of the women that I had really tried to move on with after I believe God told me to move on, in December 2009. After receiving closure, God started telling me some things that were uncomfortable, but that I was ready to hear. Over the last 2.5 months of 2010, I feel like God has been restoring my heart and calling me to not only get out of survival mode, but to be myself again.
School will start on Tuesday, after a week of snow/ice induced break extension and Martin Luther King, Jr. Day. When school starts, my detox will start as well. The main culprit in me was Lead, along with Barium, Nickel and Tungsten.
This is something you will hear from me a lot: being overweight, or in my case, obese, is a SYMPTOM. It is not the problem itself. Similarly, fixing the problem is more important than trying to lose the fat.
In my detox protocol:
1) There is chelation therapy (pronounced Key-lay-shun) which is composed of supplements that pull toxins out of your cells and others that grab the toxins and bind to them so that you can eliminate them when you go to the bathroom.
2)There is a specific eating plan (I call it that since the word "diet" has a connotation of being focused on weight loss) that is focused upon healing the individual cells of your body. Since fat loss is a "side effect" of my cells healing, there's a very real possibility that I may not lose ANY fat the first month. It is in fact possible that I may GAIN fat the first month. However, based upon the clinical experience of friends of mine who have implemented this protocol with patients, the fat should begin to pour off (typically) in the 2nd or 3rd month.
3) There is a specific form of exercise aimed at encouraging the proper hormone response in my body.
So, I would appreciate your prayers. I have to keep reminding myself that the GOAL is to repair my cells and remove toxins from my body at the cellular level, which is the ONLY true detox. The last time I tried the eating plan, I quit after a month because I had seen no response... I was never told that it takes more than a month. However, it should have been apparent to me. Faithfulness is a fruit of the God's presence in our lives, and God is calling me to faithfulness that results in consistent action.
Pray for a brother!!! My GOAL, just to spell it all out, for the Winter Quarter, 2011 is a three parter:
1) FOCUS on receiving God's love to another level
2) Allow God to cultivate a level of faithfulness that results in consistent action
3) Let that consistent action include all three parts of my detox protocol.
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